Crap, how in the hell did I get myself here?
So this is the hole I mentioned last. You know the one the size of a crater. I keep looking for a way out of here. I scream for help, but no luck. What's even worse, the damn hole I'm in keeps getting deeper. My own fault, can't scream for a bailout when I put myself here, unless of course I was a very wealthy banker type, and that I am definitely not.
So here I am bachelors degree and all. Granted I'm doing what I went to school for, but honestly I could be making this same amount of money working at Target as a check out girl. So what do you do? I thought I was smart by waiting until I was in my late 20's to go to school...thought I would give myself time to figure it all out. So wrong. I do like being in the production world, but J'aime la photographie. And if I played it wisely and really figured out what I wanted to do I may not have this behemoth debt shadowing me right now. And with that I may have been traveling this vast world capturing it's beauty and placing it within pages for everyone to see.
God if you all only knew what kind of debt I was in. I should have a house with this price tag rather than a piece of paper that's tucked away in my filling cabinet. I do this to myself all the time. I never look before I leap, that's why I feel in this stupid hole in the first place. Sometimes it's gets a little dark down here, then my mind gets clouded. But I shake myself out of it and look up for a foot hold again. Still haven't found one though.
You know you get used to living a certain way to. I have always been able to spend those little Benjamin's on whatever I wanted in the past...oooohhhh that is such a cute shirt and those pants would look great with that. Those days are just about over. I'm happy when I find that I have enough money to fuel my Earth executioner and get some groceries.
So my story ends with a warning to others so they may watch where they are walking. And although taking leaps can be fun, just be sure that you have a ladder close by to help you out when you do ascend into whatever dark hole you find.
